My grandfather had words
of advice to avoid getting lost: Study
your back trail. As a Montana cowboy in
the 1880’s and 1890’s, maybe Grandpa knew a thing or two about what it was to
be lost.
Grandpa maintained that often people became lost because
they failed to turn around occasionally and see what the landscape would look like on the return journey. When the travelers headed back, nothing would
look familiar because they had never stopped to see how things looked traveling
the opposite direction. Even though I stick closely to trails, I stop now and
then to study my back trail when I hike.
You never know when you might be forced off a trail by someone’s bull, a
bear, or other circumstances. Off trail,
you really need to know what the country looks like facing the other direction.
Studying your back trail is a good idea in life too. Every now and then it makes sense to look back
and evaluate what you have come through, how you handled it, and what you would
do differently. The 10th step
of Alcoholics Anonymous provides for studying your back trail every day by
taking a daily personal inventory and owning mistakes.
While studying your back trail is important, I have come to
realize that this, like anything else, can be overdone. If you spend all your time facing backwards and
memorizing the most minute details of the country you have already passed
through, you are bound to trip over the rocks and roots ahead of you. When hiking, you stop only once in a while to study
your back trail. It’s not efficient, and
can be dangerous, to focus most of your attention backwards, giving minimal
heed to your forward progression.
I have spent too much time studying my back trail. I plan to change that. I still want to evaluate my actions daily and correct behaviors I need
to correct. Still, no matter how much I measure my conduct and hope to improve,
I am human. I make mistakes. No amount of bemoaning the past can change my
mistakes or the mistakes others made that affect me. My only hope is to rely on
the saving merits of my Savior. If I want His help and forgiveness, I have to
let go of both my mistakes and others’ mistakes and move on. This is the
healthiest and best way to live a life.
I will continue to study my back trail, but I plan to spend
most of my efforts in charting my movement forward. I don’t like to mess up, and
I am going to try to avoid this. But part of my development includes dealing
with my mistakes. Beating myself up when
I make errors doesn’t stop me from making more errors, it only makes me
depressed, anxious, and afraid. Stop now
and then to study your back trail. Concentrate mostly on your front trail. Both statements are good advice.